Friday, November 19, 2010

_lonely little,silly little girl

come home now.
she needs you here.
she doesnt know how to handle it without you
her mind is overlapping with thoughts as she swallows the lump in her throat holding back the tears.

she needs you!
how can you not feel her heart calling out to you? can you not hear it?

shes loves you dammit! its ime to come home now.

she cant do it without you
come back to her 

_lost and alone

i wish i could spill my brains across this screen.
it feels like the only way i could fully explain the emotional state i'm in.

oh how i love him.
yes i doubted it, but i know now i do love him.
when i'm alone and afraid he knows exactly what to say to make me feel safe again.
all i need is the:

baby its all gonna be okay

i have him. i know that. i know he's not going anywhere.

i am happy with him
i just wish that it was enough.
i want more.
i want my friends back.
we have all drifted from where we used to be.we used to laugh together, cry together,act ridiculous together.
and now?
i feel as if they dont even see me.
i wonder if they even care?
i want a person. someone i can tell all my secrets to.
i had that person, but she's consumed n her own life now.

i guess for now he will have to do.

i actually want him to be around forever.
need him around forever