_addicted

oh god.

why did i let it happen?

all the warning signs were there and yet i refused to listen.

i did that stupid thing where i tried to convince myself that everything was going to be alright

stupid ignorant naive little girl.

you have so much to learn

why do you do it?

so easily give your haert away,like its worthless

_nothing but a simple silly priceless page of sorrow.

completely worthless

and yet you persisted to believe that he would complete you?

silly girl

stupid little girl

you let him fill all the spaces of your hollow heart.

you let him take control

and now you feel nothing

numb.

no emotion.

none what so ever

do i love him?

do i?

oh god.

how i wish i new the answer to that question..

he says: i love you baby

i say it back..

but do i really mean it?

i know i would not be able to manage without him

somehow i feel safe,

i find shelter in the corners of his cold heart

searching for answers

i have lost hope.

i am falling

out of love

oh god.

mind alterting substances would statisfy me now.

i need distraction

all this thinking hurts

the emptiness scares me