why did i let it happen?
all the warning signs were there and yet i refused to listen.
i did that stupid thing where i tried to convince myself that everything was going to be alright
stupid ignorant naive little girl.
you have so much to learn
why do you do it?
so easily give your haert away,like its worthless
_nothing but a simple silly priceless page of sorrow.
and yet you persisted to believe that he would complete you?
stupid little girl
you let him fill all the spaces of your hollow heart.
you let him take control
and now you feel nothing
none what so ever
do i love him?
how i wish i new the answer to that question..
he says: i love you baby
i say it back..
but do i really mean it?
i know i would not be able to manage without him
somehow i feel safe,
i find shelter in the corners of his cold heart
searching for answers
i have lost hope.
i am falling
out of love
mind alterting substances would statisfy me now.
i need distraction
all this thinking hurts
the emptiness scares me